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Former CEO of Malaysia Digital Economy Corporation Surina Shukri is currently on a mission to show how one can still live a productive life, even with breast cancer

‘Cancer’ is a word that many, if not all, perceive as having an automatic death sentence; it’s earth-shattering, and can either make or break a person as they contend with life itself—before, during and after being diagnosed with an illness almost akin to a bogeyman. Globally, as reported by a World Health Organisation article written last March, at the end of 2020, 7.8 million women alive have been diagnosed with breast cancer over the past five years, making it the most prevalent of cancer types despite its improved survival rate.

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Regardless of the many medical breakthroughs as well as the improvement of readily available resources, however, the initial impact of getting that first diagnosis always hits the hardest, even when one braces oneself for it. For Surina Shukri, former chief executive officer at the Malaysia Digital Economy Corporation (MDEC) and renowned for her 18-year stint at JPMorgan in Wall Street, her first diagnosis six years ago felt like “a punch to the face”.

“My first reaction, of course, was ‘Why?’” she says. “Because the thing is, [cancer] was always this faraway thing in our periphery, right? You always hear it from somebody else. So when I experienced it firsthand, questions like, ‘Why is this happening to me?’, and the unfairness of the situation just hit me all at once. My entire world had changed overnight, and I couldn’t help but spiral downwards.

“It didn’t help that I was a classic Type A personality—I had all these meticulous plans for my life, with notions like, ‘By this age, I’ll have done this and that’. But because of that diagnosis, it felt as though I was thrown off course. I was at a loss for what to do.”

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"My entire world had changed overnight, and I couldn’t help but spiral downwards. It didn’t help that I was a classic Type A personality."

- Surina Shukri -

The early adjustment period, according to Surina, was admittedly difficult for her, having to redefine the concept of ‘success’ taught to her at a young age by societal expectations, especially when you were a young woman climbing the corporate ladder.

But after a chance meeting with Claudia Chan, founder of S.H.E Summit, who simply told her to ask herself, “Why is this happening for her, instead of to her”—a lightbulb went off in her head.

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“It made me re-evaluate what was most important to me, and it challenged me to think outside of the box when it came to setting expectations for myself,” she says. “Like, who says you need to do A in order to get to B? You’re on your own timeline and you’re not in a rat race. Your health is what’s at stake here, which is why the things you used to take for granted are now more precious than ever, and why you become braver in trying new things, including, being easier on yourself.”

Embracing vulnerability was another lesson that Surina had to learn in every stage of being a cancer survivor, as it was, in her words, “Something that lives with you forever, so it never really goes away”.

In fact—and this bears mentioning—the last time I saw Surina was in late 2019, the very same year she took over the reins at MDEC, and her presence now, despite our present conversation held over a Zoom call, was no less magnetic than it was before.

"We’re stronger than we think ourselves to be. I ran my first-ever half marathon. I started exercising. I was more active on social media. I also taught myself that it was okay to be not okay all the time.”

- Surina Shukri -

Sporting a chic pixie cut with an air of easy charisma, you’d never guess that she relapsed. “It’s not the death sentence that everyone thinks it is,” stresses Surina. “While it’s a transformative journey that takes a toll on you mentally, physically and financially, it doesn’t mean you can’t thrive with cancer. We’re stronger than we think ourselves to be. I mean, I ran my first-ever half marathon, I started exercising, I was more active on social media and managed to connect with people who had similar experiences like myself. I also taught myself that it was okay to be not okay all the time.”

As we neared the end of our conversation, I was suddenly reminded of a quote by Andy Dufresne from Stephen King’s Shawshank Redemption: “I guess it comes down to a simple choice, really. Get busy living or get busy dying”.

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To which Surina replies, “Absolutely. I got that very same advice from another mentor of mine who lost his wife to cancer, three months before my diagnosis—and that’s exactly what he said. He told me that there was more life to live. Which is why I feel blessed as I savour life as it is today. And why I’m more determined to advocate for the things I believe in, whether it’s encouraging a healthier workplace culture that empowers instead of condemns, or supporting women in all sectors to reach their highest potential—I’m going to do it with grace and style.”

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